One definite sign that, yes indeed-, senility has entered your picture: You have a persistent feeling that, "you've forgotten something", -no clue as to what it relates to..., and it lingers past recent possibilities. Examples: did pack everything for trip, -the checkbook was in there, had turned off iron, took medicine, fed dog-, these little things. -Your mental checklists were exhausted with nothing forgotten, yet still that ominous feeling creeps into mind. You become irritated with attempting to remember what possibly could've been forgotten. Then you decide to forget this feeling, ignore it, out of mind...Thinking, "Whatever it is can't be important, as it may be nothing at all. Fat chance.
Suddenly, -when you least expect it-You are confronted by the worst memory, the most humiliating, saddest, tragic, horrible, loathsome recollection,-usually a huge regret in your life... Blasted reality from the past. A moment you'd gone thru' hell to intentionally wipe from mind, -push away; you were programmed to never think about ever again. The feeling of having forgotten something is gone. YOU KNOW WHAT IT WAS TOO. You'd forgotten to forget.
Aging is a bitch. It's supposed to be your memory. Why does it play tricks? How? Your good ol' mind doesn't clue you in on life threatening issues-, like "hey, it's broken", "stop it right now", or ask, "wanna' go to jail?". Tricks, my ass.
9/2010-My brain is a real practical joker. It made my knee play tricks on me yesterday.
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